I MISS YOU

I miss you

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare

The shadow in the background of the morgue

The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want

Where you can always find me

And we'll have halloween on Christmas

And in the night we'll wish this never ends

We'll wish this never ends

I miss you, miss you

I miss you, miss you

Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick, strange darkness

Comes creeping on so haunting everytime

And as I stared I counted the webs from all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?

Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already the voice inside my head

(I miss you, miss you)

kenapa harus ada yang lain

A year from now

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you’ve walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we’ll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we’d be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you’d never let it go?
Remember. cause that’s all you can do.
We’ll never make another memory,
We’ll never make another memory.
I wish I’d have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn’t have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were.
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don’t share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
You knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I’m sorry that wasn’t enough.
So, we’ll go our own ways,
And hopefully you’ll remember the things I’ve told you,
Hopefully you’ll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I’ve learned from it.
But aren’t you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don’t consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn’t end this way,
Cause I’m still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you’d never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we’d be a year from now

i wrote this

love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime, and never let go till we’re gone.
if you really mean forever, then say you will try, never say forever cause forever makes me cry., never say hello, if you really mean goodbye.
never say you’re too, if you never plan to start. never look into my eyes if all you do is lie.
never say " i love you" if you didn’t care, never talk about feeling if they arent really there. there are times when i cant decide whether to see you or not, i want to see you because i miss you

it's hard to make a decision when you're too tired to hold on, but you're too in love to let go

The Mutual Heartache

introduced with innocence .who would have ever guessed that you were the one i had ,been so desperately searching .You talk as i do but yet understand when i mumble.
you see ,as i do but your vision burned by naivity .this is the barrier that seperates us .
i cannot cross yet .There is to much of me that would frighten you,so i live in heartache because we cant fully explose this love and so what is your heartache does it feel as shor ? as mine? no matter where i go for how long it takes .i will never recover from this mutual heartache

pilot

1 Mei 2009

"van lo mau ga jd cewe gw?"

"engga,engga salah lagi"

that day i took a risk, i knew it i had a planned with that questions if he asked me. definetly i know exactly the answer, i love you

september 2009

"makasih ya sayang hari ini, kamu gatau gimana senengnya aku hari ini sama kamu.. kita ke dufan naik kora-kora,halilintar tornado rumah kaca istana boneka niagara arung jeram robocop terus terakhir biang lala.. aku sayang bgt sama kamu van, kebayang ga sih kamu kalo misalnya kita pisah bukan dari kemauan kita? pasti bakal sedih bgt ya....."

28 januari 2010

"van aku punya janji nih "

"oh ya apaan mal?"

"adadeh udah lama sih janjinya,sama diri aku sendiri"

"yaaah apaan? please dong please kasih tau aku tentang aku bukan?

"iya tentang kamu ko, entar aja ya sampe kesampaian"

"buat aku seneng ga nih"

"semoga aja gitu"

i love you

30 april 2010

21.20 A- WHOLE NEW WORLD

I can show you the world

Shining, shimmering, splendid

Tell me, princess, now when did

you last let your heart decide

I can open your eyes

Take you wonder by wonder

Over, sideways, and under

On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world

A new fantastic point of view

No one to tell us no

Or where to go

Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world

A dazzling place i never knew

But now from way up here

It's crystal clear

That now i'm in a whole new world

With you

Now i'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights

Indescribable feeling

Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling

Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world

Don't you dare close your eyes

A hundred thousand things to see

Hold your breath- it gets better

I'm like a shooting star, I've come so far I can't go back to where i used to be

A whole new world

With new horrizons to pursue

I'll chase them anywhere, there's time to spare, let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world

A whole new world

A new fantastic point of view

A new fantastic point of view

No one to tell us no or where to go

(Jasmine:) Or say we're only dreaming

a whole new world

Every turn a surprise

(Aladdin:) With new horizons to pursue

Every moment gets better

I'll chase them anywhere theres time to spare

Anywhere

Theres time to spare

Let me share

This whole new world

With you

A whole new world

A whole new world

Thats where we'll be

Where we will be

A thrilling change

A wonderous place

For you and me

KARENA KU TAHU ENGKAU BEGITU

kuyakin dalam hatiku
kau satu yang ku perlu
kurasa hanya dirimu
yang membuatku rindu

* bila saat nanti kau milikku
kuyakin cintamu
takkan terbagi, takkan berpaling
karena kutahu engkau begitu
karena kutahu engaku begitu

hingga ku pasti menunggu
selama apapun itu
demi cinta yang kurasakan
yang hanyalah kepadamu

** percayalah kusungguh-sungguh
mengatakan semua
yakinkan hatimu kau milikku
karena kutahu engkau begitu
karena kutahu engkau begitu

i was just speechless , i love you

1 Mei 2010

"selamat satu tahun ya sayang,semoga kita selalu awet kaya carl sama ellie ;),

i love you"

juli 2010

can you believe it, in one day a vanya could break all of on above

and he never back and everythings fade away.. this time i made a big mistake but still

i love you

agustus 2010

"gw udah gabisa sama lo" "pacaran tuh ribet" ,

i love you

30 Agustus 2010

"nobita shizuka" happy birthday kemal darmawan ;)

and i caught you, with some one else

these what happen if you too force someone to still love you

oh you,you did it again

you did hurt my heart i dont know how many times

you make me so desperatly in love and u let me down

you said u never lie again, you say this time will be so right

and then i found you were lying there by her side.

i love you,i forgive you

everyhtings seems perfect, too perfect maybe

8 november 2010

"aku udah gamau bgt pacaran"-k

9 november 2010

"kalo yang kamu bilang setengah hati.. iya aku emang setengah hati,"

"jijik gw sama lo, jijik.. jijik van"

i love you

i'm too vurnarable, i believe every girls,woman,ladies they are

even the strongest one.. inside we're fragile.. but the srongest one know how to handle

and right know i'm sorry i'm so selfish i can't found out how to handle this ruins.

maaf mal,

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